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I have just started a myspace so if you want you can check it out and tell me what you think
www.myspace.com/shwiboo
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[22 Oct 2005|12:39am] |
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I know that nobodys gonna acually see this and the one person that might see it i dont think they care anymore.... But im gonna wright in this thing anyway just because i dunno it seems like the right thing to do right now. Ok everyone listen i know i messesed up with Nikki you know it i know it she knows it we all know it but the only problem is i didnt realize it untill it was to late. She really was the best thing that had ever happened to me and it took this time apart for me to realize it iv been really lonly latly and i know its my fault for fucking up with her, Iv had oppertunitys(sp) to i guess not be lonly to but it in a way that isnt crude but iv never been like that and never will be it dosnt seem right to me at all damn everytime i start to think about anything latly some how she is always involved weather im just remanising about friends that shes never even meet or more reacent things i just kinda wish she was there. Damn i was really about to ask her to marry me i was working on geting a secound job and everything so i could buy a ring and i fucked it all up...... I dunno maybe you guys shouldnt listen to me right now if there is anyone reading this at all, to tell everyone the truth i still love her though and i really am truly happy for her to have found someone that will treat her the way she deserves to be treated so Nick if you ever see this dont make the same mistake i did hold on to her with every breath in your body. Because well i dont want to sound typical but if you hurt her i dunno just dont change my opinion of you iv never had a real reason to not like you so dont give me one. Im not gonna lie to anyone if i could take her back i would in a heartbeat but the more i see her the more i come to realize that its never gonna happen i think thats why iv been so depresed latly. Iv been sleeping less and drinking more to help me sleep but i dunno i cant go on like that forever so i guess we will se what happens in the future its funny i still remember the very first words i had said to her no matter how insagnifigant they had seemed at the time today i wouldnt give up my memory of that for the world i know im just kinda rambling on right now but i dunno im just kinda typing as this shit comes to my head. today it was kinda funny she asked me if i was gonna go out with renne(sp) because i guess shes been telling nikki that iv have been flirting or something but anyway there is no way i could because for one thing i dont find her attractive at all (no offense if your reading this i just dont) and two right now it just dosnt seem right to be with anyone but her. im not sure how many people that read this will understand that if any at all so ill explain it a little i guess, very little. When you have been with someone for so long they in a sense become a part of you hell she was my first my only and im never gonna be able to let go of that no matter how much i try so i guess some day i will move on but im never gonna let that go i know that alot of you think i treated her badly maybe i did i dont know shes never told me one way or anouther but frankly i dont care what you people think take this anyway you will i dont care who sees it post it in your journal if you want and quote me i dont care i just wanted everyone that sees this how i feel and to let everyone know that i know I, me, and myself was the one that fucked up and lost her and that i see my mistake and all the mistakes iv made over the years and that im sorry for them and mostly i wanted everyone to know that i still care for her, and would do anything for her weather it be now or 10 years from now if it involves her and its something she wants i will do anything within my power to have it done well i think im gonna stop now i know that iv havnt made alot of sense and everything but like i said this is my thoughts and i typed them as they came to me. im gonna go ill talk to all of you latter if you do read this weather i know you or not weather we like each other or not let me know im leaving this a public post so if you read it let me know please i dont know why but i would appriacate it ill talk to everyon latter bye.
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I luh youuu! Baby! Sitting on my lap right now. Yay!! Hmmmm ... I didnt say that! *whines* eh ... *holds back laughing* Tickle you. I dunno.
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[07 Mar 2005|09:23pm] |
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I love you baby!!! Im gonna be a cheapo ha ha ha ha. bye baby ill talk to you after you get off work!
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[06 Mar 2005|10:54pm] |
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I had the most wonderful time yesterday it was awsome i hung out with my baby all day at lunch made love and ate dinner then exchanged gifts well i gave her my card and she procrastinated...lol. she gave me a promis ring!!! i love it its perfect Well i had the best day yesterday i love you baby well im gonna go bye everyone.
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[25 Feb 2005|07:33am] |
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You dont love me more POOPIE HEAD!!!! I LOVE YOU MORE!!!
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[20 Feb 2005|10:13pm] |
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Well lets see this is how everything is going so far we are better we made up again sorry about that everyone i was just blowing off steam Today went good i hung out with nikki all day and we had milkshakes and piha when we walked down to the cupachino place then we went to my place and had some fun...;) Then we went to her house and hung out the rest of the day then i just came here and played diablo and ate. not much else happining bye everyone
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[19 Feb 2005|12:34am] |
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Ok you always want me to post in this fucking thing well here it goes im so pissed right now i couldnt give a fuck how dare you. You tell me to make you happy and i tell you everything i do is to make you happy and you tell me well your not doing a very good job of it then i tell you just to give me some time to my self and you have the nerve to tell me to do something against my will!!!! i do things against my will all the time for you ALL FOR YOU! i gave up everything i have ever know and everything i have ever loved FOR YOU! I do everything for you why? well ill tell you why i gave up everything and everyone FOR YOU! Becaues i LOVE YOU more than i did them and everything i have ever know and you have the nerve to tell me the things you tell me I left my fucking family and stayed in florida for you and i cant even get enuff trust from you to trust not to go fuck some other random bitch or even talk to some other bitch yes thats right everyone i dont talk to any woman under 45 because nikki dosnt want me to and you know what i do it gladly because i love her but she has the nerve to tell me that tonight Oh it just boils my god damn blood when i think of all i have given up for her because i love her and she says all that shit to me you know what i bet all of you think im an asshole i bet you really do because your allways geting her half of the story well heres mine and its about fucking time i let go because she dose all the time and i always see you guys takeing her sob storys in and giveing her sympothy well you know what i dont want your sympothy i just want to fucking be herd for once well baby here you go you still dont fucking get it you want me to crawl give me the time to do it and calm down enuff dont call me 57 fucking times in one night because i hang up and dont anwser the phone i tell you it all the time give me time and i will crawl to you all the fuck you want to what ever
P.S. Sorry everyone that was just a bunch of random thoughts kinda mashed togather i was just geting shit off of my chest.
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[17 Feb 2005|12:38am] |
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Well valintines day was great i got to hang out with my baby all day witch i loved we just hung out and had chineese food it was yummie hanging out with her all day really put me in a good mood i love her so much i really do even though it dosnt seem it sometime i do i want the whole world to know that I LOVE NIKKI HENRY WITH ALL MY HEART!!!...lol. the day after valintines day was ok we ended up geting into a spat that ran over into today but we are better now. Me and her are gonna try and save up for a scooter...lol. bob...lol. anyway nobody that dosnt work at publix would get that aww nikkis so cute im watching her on webcam eat lucky charms wonder if she finished all those cinimon buns allready...lol. Can you belive it we have allmost been going out for 2 years seems like time is just flying by well thats all of my random thoughts for now im out ill talk to all of you latter bye.
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Ok i really dont want to post but i promised her i would do it ok here it goes things at work are going ok nothing new its just well work and valintines day is coming up im excited because i really want to hang out with Nikki and i got one of her presents today in the mail and its way bigget than i thought it was gonna be but all well i hope she likes it...lol. anyway my phone is being gay they told me id have to buy a new one to fix it and i told them they were assholes and hung up...lol. see how things get out of hand well i got to finish geting ready for work and eat ill post again someday...lol. bye everyone
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Wow awsome thank you baby for changing my journal that pick is really neat.
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[22 Jan 2005|07:47pm] |
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Ok so heres how it goes so far. im in a house now and its really nice and pretty cheap. me and nikki are kinda on ruff territory but we will get through it. i just got the internet back up and started to play diablo again. and things at work are going pretty good. Ok thanks guys cya.
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[26 Oct 2004|12:07pm] |
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I LUH YOU BABY HAVE A GOOD DAY AT WORK!!!! without me there ::whines::
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[22 Oct 2004|10:35pm] |
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BABY RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! i luh you so much!!!!!!!!!!
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IM BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna see my baby i love her so much its been to long! and its gonna be a while before i see her::Whines:: I need her so much nobody has any idea. Hopefully ill see her soon::whines again but louder::
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[15 Oct 2004|11:14pm] |
1. Go out with me?
2. Give me your number?
3. Have sex with me?
4. Let me kiss you?
5. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
6. Let me take you out to dinner?
7. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
8. Take a shower with me?
9. Be my GF/BF?
10. Have a fling with me?
11. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
12. Buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
13. Take me home for the night?
14. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
15. Sing car karaoke with me?
16. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
17. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
18. Let me give you a piggyback ride?
19. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
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I'm proud of my baby!
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